Been there, done that, worn the tee shirt and stared in the video mate
10 years ago, I was a oppsed in the head bunny boiler who wanted to kill people because I drunk EVERY NIGHT and never faced upto the big heap of shit I had made for myself .........
For starters, you have admitted you have a drink problem so that's half the battle won and don't forget that bit
Without teaching you to suck eggs, alcohol is a depressant.
Most people have been there, some (including me) have tried to drink away problems.
Trouble is, when you sober up the problems are still there and if its money they are probably worse so stay off the booze FULL STOP mate.
As for medication ............. stop taking everything now !
Your not a doctor and the chemist can only treat you based on what symptoms you give them (and make a few quid too
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If the pain gets too much, 'dangle berries' to the queue and walk / crawl into casualty.
Its friggin hard at first mate.
The first few alcohol free nights are scary as hell with the amount of shit that will go through your head but believe me, when your body adjusts to work without alcohol, you will have the best nights sleep you have ever had and when you wake up, things will seem a lot clearer and that's when you can start to sort out your life