Sorry if this post isn’t of interest, but to be honest I think it’ll help me out on a personal level. Though I doubt anyone’s really missed me after the last couple of weeks as I know I’m not a great poster on here compared to most. But after recently having to deal with some dreadful family news I really haven’t been myself or could bear to even touch the computer, let alone post or check emails etc.
My Step-father recently passed away, the Cancer he was suffering with finally took him last week. He only found out about six months ago and was told with some treatment they couldn’t cure it but could probably almost bring it to a halt, prolonging his life for a few more years at least anyhow.
At first the hospital thought that things seemed to be going well, but up and till couple of weeks ago, he got up one day, wasn’t feeling very well, went to see the specialist anyhow as it was an appointment day for him. There and then the specialist said he needs to be in hospital immediately. They did some further tests and they found out that his Cancer wasn’t responding to treatment as they first thought and with it being an aggressive type it had spread throughout.
Just when we thought things couldn’t get any worse for our family, his condition deteriorated by the end of the week. We were told that he may respond a little, though to be prepared for the worse, as it could be a few weeks, maybe month or two. Sadly it wasn’t to be, as I got a call early hours of the next morning from the hospital, he had passed away – peacefully in his sleep thank goodness, rather than suffering in pain.
As I write this with a tear or two in my eye thinking about it all as I type, as right from the start he was determined to fight his condition and wasn’t about to give up. He was always positive thinking and not for one minute did he ever think that things could get so bad to think of preparing for the worse, as along with the family we all thought that he had a few years in front of him at least.
I suppose that’s the hardest thing for us to deal with, so sudden how it all happened and we didn’t even get to say proper goodbyes.
I’m full of guilt as I’ve been suffering quite badly myself, having getting over gastroenteritis, so wasn’t able to get to the hospital near the end, as didn’t want to pass any virus to him or other patients, so I feel as if I had my chance taken from me to say my goodbyes, etc. :-/
It’s been and still is a difficult time for my family to get through at the moment, sort out what and who needs to be notified, etc. Not going to be easy time and I’m just fed up of life myself at the moment, having no interest in anything much. Also finding it difficult at the moment to eat and sleep as so much more to deal with.
I know I’m not the only one who’s had to deal with this sort of thing and I won’t be the last. But no matter how you try to prepare yourself in life for the things that may happen along the way, there are still things that you never ever think will happen to ‘you’ and hit you square in the face.
People say things will get a little easier as time goes by, but for now it’s difficult to believe any of that.
Hopefully in a few weeks I’ll back to myself posting and reading threads on here, as it’s the one place I regularly visit. Having made one or two friends from here, besides the one’s I chat to online.
Well like I’ve said, I know that this isn’t going to be of interest to anyone, but more of a help to me knowing that I’m sure someone can understand where I coming from on here and bit of moral support I guess? :-/
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